A conversation with Chrissy about my dissatisfaction

From my brain

Me [10:52 AM]:

Thanks for the issue log database.::This project sucks, but while stuff is running the background, that at least is giving me something less mind-numbing to work on.

Chrissy [10:53 AM]:

glad i could help

Me [10:53 AM]:

Oh, and unless I happen to get fired today, don't worry about me leaving in the immediate future. That job fell through. The guy was told to "scale back his budget" and had to hire someone for $20/hr.

Chrissy [11:05 AM]:

so what can we do to get your heart into it while here?

Me [11:06 AM]:

I'm not sure. I've been trying for the last two years to do it.

I'm doing the exact same job for the last 11 years. You're totally into this now because it's something new and exciting for you. There is no change for me. There's no new experiences. No new skills. I'm facing the fact that I am farily unmarketable except in very niche areas.

Chrissy [11:08 AM]:

see, that is where we can change it. this is all new. while the basic key strokes may be the same, there is so much more to it now

Me [11:08 AM]:

Sure, there's still the carrot of SAP dangling in front of us, but VCS is making even more enemies in IT than Tim ever had. They're less and less inclined to sharing that knowledge with us. In the end, with the direction that he's pushing our development and projects into, and statements he's made to Jesse about populating certain tables, we can look to be still doing this exact same stuff for another 2-3 years.

Chrissy [11:08 AM]:

so much furture you could take it

Me [11:10 AM]:

I'm a developer Chrissy, not an analyst. When Bossman "hired" me to move to Direct, I told him that. I can do the analysis, but in the end, I don't really like it. I like project development and the creativity of it. I'm not putting anything new into what we've been doing thus far. It's 99% regurgitation of the last 11 years.

VCS is an analyst. He does NOT think the way the rest of the guys do.

His philosophy is quick, dirty, get it done. We all have said that all of our projects lately are all held together by chicken wire and duct tape. Then, when a fire comes and the smallest things break...the whole house of cards comes tumbling down. Things are built now...not built "right".

Chrissy [11:16 AM]:

see, you could be doing the project development more and you might have to do some analysis but so do i and i don't like it

but it helps me do the rest

Me [11:18 AM]:

You're missing what I'm saying...not project development like you're talking about. I'm talking about programming, interface design, that kind fo thing. IT work. I'm tired of being the red-headed stepchild of the company. Not IT. Not Operations. Completely in the middle. Every person on the team is at that cracking point.

Chrissy [11:19 AM]:

but if you follow the lead of FFS and he is impressed, don't you see where this could go?

Me [11:21 AM]:

I've put my eggs in that basket twice.

All it takes is a shake up in the upper eschalons, and FFS gets repostioned, and I'm looking at hundreds of hours of dev time shot.

Chrissy [11:22 AM]:

that is something we all have to live with

Me [11:23 AM]:

I come in, I earn my paycheck, I go home. I check my Monster / Careerbuilder account throughout the week and apply, hoping there is a way out. I need to move on, but at the moment there isn't anything. I just keep at what I'm doing.