August 11
From my brain
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2008
Me 09:48, 11 August 2008 (EDT)
Other than the slip into despair on Saturday, it was overall a good weekend. (SIDE NOTE: considering my notes on feelings of failure on the Saturday post, I find it interesting that yesterday marked the death of the baking business).
Again this weekend, I had a lot of good conversations. Got to talk to Wifey a lot as we were alone at the house together. Spent a lot of time talking to her last night as we were falling asleep too (even though we were both dead tired, and had turned out the lights, THAT'S when we got chatty). The one conversation that I had though that really hit it was with Shane at church.
I got talking about the guild for a minute (mentioning their gathering on Saturday), and he posed the question, "So, you've been playing Warcraft for awhile. Does it get to feel like it's more of a second job to you, or is it still fun?"
I had to think about what he was asking for a second. On the surface, I would answer yes, it does feel like a job, but that's really only because I'm guild leader. Meetings to hold, people to keep happy, minutia to not let slip through the cracks. There's just so damn much to coordinate and moderate with 170+ people that it's honestly a small corporation I'm running at times.
However, that's not what he was asking. He was really getting at the feeling that the game in and of it self was a burden. That I felt compelled to play it and keep on top of things and that being the "job" aspect.
I answered him as frankly as I've had conversations with friends in game: no. I've been playing for three and a half years now, and even after all that time, I'm not burned out, I don't feel pushed, I don't feel intimidated, and I'm still having fun. I tra-la-la'd my way to 70 post-expansion purely because everyone else it seemed wanted rush-rush-rush to get to the endgame. I had my fun and enjoyed my journey.
I had the conversation with one of my officers recently about this and she told me flat out: "It's because you seem to work really hard at balancing things." At other times, she commented that while she loves a lot of the guys we play with, she'd probably kill them to be married to them. They spend so much time in-game, that she can't imagine they're getting anything else done.
The balancing act gets to me I'll admit though. It came to me after Saturday and I talked to Wifey about it last night. There are times where I feel that I'm pulled to many ways. If I did stuff with Scouts and the guild, the house suffered. If I did stuff with the house and Scouts, the guild suffered. If I did stuff with the house and the guild, Scouts suffered. "Maybe you're trying to do to much?", she replied in the dark. I thought about it, but really: My life would feel a little empty without any three of them. (Already does without the house.)
- NOTE: LOVE YOU FIREFOX 3! Power outages suck, but "Restore Previous Session" is beautiful.
Still, I do work damn hard at it, and I said that to Shane. With rare exception, I don't play on Sunday. That's for church/family. Sunday night is date night with Wifey as is Tuesday and Thursday. Monday night is usually my off-guild night (where I play an un-guilded alt). Wednesday is my questing night, touch base with the peoples in-game, Friday is raid night (formerly instancing night), and Saturday is guild night.
Sure, I run the guild during the day via email/forums while I'm at work, but honestly, that's just to alleviate the boredom. The members of the guild have grown to be my friends -- from best friends down to just that random "Hey Darias!" in an IM once a week. I don't think I could do without that aspect.
I know I usually have something pithy to end a post with, but I ain't got it today. This is just mostly a collection of thoughts to put on my blog so I can stop dwelling on it so much.
Still, good weekend nonetheless.
2006
Me 09:23, 11 August 2006 (EDT)
An appology: I'm sorry I keep missing people's calls at my desk. You see, I have my headphones on for 7.5 of the 8 hours I work in the day because The Nosey One is also EXTREMELY vocal when on the phone, when working on someone, or just mumbling to herself. I therefore typically miss my phone while listening to CD101.
So, if I missed your call, I'll check my voice mail...eventually.
2004
Me 01:44, 11, August 2004 (EDT)
Haven't heard from Shawn in days despite emails to both home and work, so I'm gonna have to take care of EI's denizens on my own. I reallly wanna have this as a project, if for no other reason than I don't wanna loose my blog. :)
So, I'll probably be setting things up within the next week or so in order that everything will come together in time for EI going poof and my site being born.
Post here if you want to be transfered over. Only those that I hear from (either posting or by word of mouth) will get ported over. Everyone else gets nuked at the end of the month. The only thing you'll have to worry about is if you have any non-relative pointers to images in your blog settings. Beyond that, it will all remain the same.
