B Plus Philosophy

From my brain

Rather, the "B+ Philosophy" was something I developed in late middle school, probably around the eighth or ninth grade.

In sixth grade, I started getting migraine headaches, and missed school on occasion. By middle school I missed a good bit more time. In 10th grade, I missed almost the entire month of October as I had the headaches almost every day. Some of this were true headaches, and some was a bit psychosomatic (much longer story about the stress of keeping secrets of playing Dungeons & Dragons from your Pentecostal church group), but still, it really kicked my grades in the behind and I came close to failing out the year.

Prior to sixth grade though, I was a straight A student. I was one of those people most hated and I rarely studied, but still pulled an A. Once I started missing time from school, and my grades started tanking, I couldn't pull those A's out any longer, and I found people got really disappointed. Even when I tried to push for the A's, they couldn't come (migraines tend to keep you from being able to focus on things like "reading").

At that point, I ended up being more of a straight "B+" student. After awhile of that, I found that if I occasionally did get an A...people were happy. If I slipped (or couldn't pull it together) and got more of a B, there wasn't so much of a big deal. This made me very complacent...also known as lazy. So succinctly, the B+ Philosphy is this:

When you get A's all the time, people always expect an A, and slipping to a B is a disappointment. If you get B+'s all the time, an A gets people excited, and B just gets you a "It's OK, try harder next time then." So...why am I working so hard to get an A?

The problem with this is that you never find what you're truly strong at because you make yourself week in damn near everything. There's not trying. There's no pushing yourself. You just take whatever you get and coast through.

It's things like this that get you dead end jobs like working at ThePit.