May 9
From my brain
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2012
Me 12:07, 9 May 2012 (EDT)
You know what sets you off to a good day? When someone from your old job (at the cafe) replies back to your email about how you're doing like this:
- That is great to hear you are doing good! It has been the same at work. I am just working less. D is gone and J, they hired two new people and one girl is awful. They hired them to just do the lines and to help with baking. But the one girl has taken over baking. She needs to be fired but K hired her and you know how she can't be wrong.
Oh yeah, just doing a bit of a happy dance now. :)
2008
Me 08:22, 9 May 2008 (EDT)
So, I just (fully) remembered that on Monday, I'm supposed to go see the endocrinologist. The problem? I forgot that I have to get the blood work done in time for him to have it on hand that day. Damn. I'll have to call them to see if it's even worth it for me to skip lunch today to get them done today or just wait and talk to the doctor on Monday.
This all happened because we were in the midst of something back in March and I was NOT going to make the appointment. I called to reschedule and as it turned out the only thing they had was May. I had figured mid April at that point, but May? Yikes.
So, I'm either missing lunch today or on Monday, staring at the doctor and saying, "Well, I feel OK."
2007
Me 07:56, 9 May 2007 (EDT)
I sailed into work yesterday on a relatively even keel. I had a couple projects I had taken on pro bono (i.e. no one screamed Get this to me by Monday morning!), and I was eager to get them done because basically, it was just helping someone out. I came in just content to do my work.
But then a friend decided that she cared too much for me and decided to discuss my negativity (on this blog, specifically).
Let's get one thing clear. This is my venting place, my stress relief. Some guys play racquetball or go to a batting cage. Other guys hunt and shoot small things (inanimate or not). Others go home and beat their wives and children. In the biochemical instability I've been in as of late, and having no interest in the first two items, I come here so I keep myself from doing the third.
Is this blog some sort of MySpace social networking page just so I can keep in touch with my friends and let them know how my life is going? Honestly, I couldn't care less if you the reader are reading this now or not. This blog is here for Me. This is so I see who I am at various points in my life and keep track of it all. I've tried doing it on a word-processor many times, and likewise in notebooks. They fail. An online blog however is accessible wherever I can get online.
Emotions run to all extremes and in between on this blog. There are days that I just want to smash things, and so I come here to let them out. There are days that I'm just goofy and want to share an image / video / link of something funny. Heck, there are even days -- rare as they are lately -- where I'm absolutely elated that something fantastic has happened, and I want to share it for the world. If I have the mental space and temporal space available, you'll see it all here.
That said, if you can't tolerate one extreme to another, or don't like the fact I may be in a rut of one topic / mood for awhile, don't read. I ran for a solid week straight expounding on the spiritual joy of Holy Week just a little over a month ago. Did anyone say, "Ugh, the religious thing is getting a little thick...meh."? I've posted direct reports about craziness about work, but they're not depressing/negative...this place sucks, and I've been saying that for years.
When all is said and done, right now the sole issue with me is my T level.
My current working environment -- and that's the active role I play, not a relative to the company as a whole -- is rather good right now. I've got less project-stress thrown at me right now than I have for several years, my boss is fantastic, and I have a good share of my day where I can wander around on-line / keep tabs on the guild forums.
Yes, the financial thing is a huge, completely, !@#$ing mess right now. However, it's been steadily growing (sinking?) to this point for about three years. The problem? The low T is not letting me have a coping mechanism to deal with it any more. I've gone through a lot of crap in life (Hello, cancer/chemo while you're waiting on the birth of your first child?), but I've made it through on personal strength and prayers (when the personal strength fell through). Right now, that personal strength is completely and totally fallen out on me, grasp for it though I may.
So again I say, if you can't deal with the emotional ups and downs that are Me and are contained with in my brain, then just don't read.
2006
Me 08:48, 09, May 2006 (EDT)
Never believe they're really a chick...
It's stuff like this that drove me from the AOL chatrooms LONG ago. Frightening that it happens in WoW.
